Im so Loved…..

Ahh..I’m sorry if u guyz getting bored ..2 blog updates on same day..coz I don’t get to update it so often thanks to my work schedule….
Well my title probably has most of u thinking how pompous I am..but honestly..No that’s not the intention..This update is jus for me to read when Im down n think Im all alone in this world..n realize how stupid Im bein…n to make u all think of people who lov u..

To mention a few people who make me feel on cloud no 9 without any effort..

For starters my Mom..We may have a hazar quarrels..but shez alwez around for me..I feel really bad coz I ve somehow become so bizi with my own Life.but she waits n makes sure I have dinner even when I return at 12 PM from office..Thanks Mom(Though I know ur not gonna be reading this but I believe u ll somehow realize this is how I feel)

Then the most important person in my Life my Sis..Come wat may she is the world to me..n a large part of the person I am today is thanks to her…

N then my world of frenz..who give me happiness..
All of u guyz who love readin my blog..n ask me now n then for updates..

Hmm..Harish..well..he just has to know that therz something which ll make u happy..n if its within his scope..if its somethin he can do..he will do it..To take a recent example..Well he gives me missed at nite before he goes to work around 2 PM coz it jus kinda gives a kick-start to my day when i wake up the next morn n see his missed..
n yeah..If Harish is ur frend u get the complete package..the gud n bad..which is probably the best n worst part of it..Lov u Plumpy n sorry for u know wat!!!

Then..Div..coz of who Im probably yet walkin around as the Pavithra I was..She has been ther thru thick n thin..Literally!!!coz I have had maximum fun with her n I know I can turn to her when Im sad.We both have grown to care so much for each other..that even if its broad daylight..we give each other a missed to signify that we have reached home safetly(n to think one of my frenz thought I was checkin on her, when I asked her the same Q..That really broke my heart!!)
Div n S..Both of ‘em have alwez been so caring..When I hang out with ‘em I somehow feel Im in the company of a mature couple..who are such gud fun!We have been out to quite a few places together..Bryan Adams Show..coffee..n they have dropped me home so many times.Thnx guyz..seriously u donno the no. of times u ve made a diffenrence to a bad day..Hopin n Prayin for the 2 of u guyz..n my friendship with u!!!

N last but surely not the least Anu..the reason for me writin this blog..On Tursday I was in office till 11 PM..hvg an extra long n tiring day..n I jus wanted to read a gud thought before I left for the day..n so I opened anu’s mail which had the subject “ODE” expecting to read some good literatue..Only after I opened the mail did I realize..it was an ODE TO ME!!!!well words wouldn’t be enuf to express how I felt..Here is the poem she wrote for me..which she sez she couldn’t give a complimntary close to..

she is a little girl
with a big heart
it is her traits i unfurl
and here i start

Proud to call her "Dame Kindness",
Ah! she is so nice!
Verily gives out love in blindness
In short, she is a person without vice!!

Well..It made me realize wat matters is people who lov n care for u..It is important to acknowledge n feel gud about the lov u receive rather than wastin tears on lov which u yearn to get..It is necessary to give love to receive it..but is it possible practically to give without expecting anything in return????Guess that calls for another blog….

So until the next time..
Pavs

To Bindu n Viv

For those who don’t know who these 2 people are..Bindu is one of my closest skool frenz..a crazily sane gurl..n viv….well trust me none of u would believe me if I told u how we became frenz..but hez one awesome frend..n hmm..the craziest guy on the surface of this earth!!!!

Now y am I suddenly dedication a blog to ‘em..hmm..coz they made the 5th of Jan ’05 one of the most precious memorable dayz for me..n a hazar other things…Well we went out for dinner that day..Viv treated us at Leela..The grandeaur of the restaurant is not wat makes it memorable for me but the tour Viv gave us round the place..(U agree with me on that Bindu?) He took us to the Leela kitchen n all over the place n then when I fell of the stairs both of ‘em were more worried about the Camera in my hand!!!!(Yup..I yet call ‘em friends!!!)

It was so awesome..so carefree..Viv dropped me back home around 11PM..n even mom knew about it..so no guilt/fear pangs..jus an awesome time..Well when it comes to these 2 people..we don’t keep in touch regularly not every day/month..but somhow when we catch up.even if its after a year..therz no disconnection..its jus like continuing a conversation we had left halfway thru the last time..

Bindu has almost alwez forgotten my B’day..forgets to wish me for Diwali(But this year she did!!)..but I know that’s her..n ours is a long n true friendship(Tocuhwood Bindu!!!)
Viv..aahh..wat can I say..a person whoz kinda changed so much about my life..a person who I think very few people have really understood..With due respect to all my frenz…I think hez one person who kinda defines Friendship..He never calls me or anything..Its alwez me who calls him….on his bday,Xmas n new Years…Im sure he doesn’t even know my b’date….but I know that if im ever so stuck in Life n I need major help..he will NEVER EVER let me down…Thnx for givin me this kinda confidence Viv...

Donno how long we ll be in touch(Viv wont even be reading this blog!!)But I know we ll never forget each other..N Bindu..ahhh we have a long path in front of us..thru out which we ll be there for each other!!!!

Lov ya guyz
Pavi

All that starts has to come to an End!!!

Awesome Start n Depressin End…

Well my 1st blog talks about happy I was..n then therez this sudden feeling of sadness…
Acually the month n the week specifically was awesome..we had this theme dressin in office..so I wore my fav white salwar n also a saree after ages..Yest we went to country club from off..everythin was gud..christmas nite I partied at Spinn with my bro ravi..etc..well things couldn’t get better..n that’s in the true sense!!!

There was Tsunami…which really was depressin..Why the hell did so may thousands of people have to die for no fault of theirs..n yet I’m a li’l selfish I had kept the option of partying open…sayin “If I sit back at home are their lives gonna get any better?” well I dint get permission from my folks at home to go to those places as a volunteer, though I had that option with me.But naah..i was yet selfish n then bhoom..my partying got cancelled n one of my dearest frenz ever..hmm..her grandmom passed away..
well I donno wat I’m feelin sad about..the Tsunami..my frend…or..hmm..i really donno the reason..n that’s wat scares me the most..coz going by my last blogs logic..when there is no single reason..the feelings gonna last longer
Hmmm..but according to my new theory..All that starts has to come to an end…In a negative way..my happiness is kinda not there any more..but positively..well my sorrow can’t remain for too long!!!!It has to come to an end once its started..

Newez..to Wind up…Wishin the world a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

On second thoughts…. whats in a new year, ..its just another tomorrow waiting to unravel its mysteries n surprises for us.

Bye until the next Year….
Pavs

Smile..It makes people wonder wat your upto!!!

The million $ Question..High on life!

Let me start by giving u the background..my chat(Yahoo n MSN) display names are “I’m High On Life” n then came my first blog…That’s it..since then I’ve had sooo many people askin me the reason for my happiness..There are some who wanted to know if I was in love..n then some thought I had got a promotion..n some(mostly close friends) well couldn’t pinpoint a single reason n so kept ponderin over why I was “High on Life” and why I was so happy…The truth is..There is no Reason..I swear.I was happy for no particular thing..it was how my heart felt..n that’s precisely why it lasted for so long…
In between there would be these dayz when I used to feel a li’l low..n then a messenger window would pop up sayin “Hi miss..’HIGH’ “ n then I used to feel guilty of bein sad n get happy again..so thnx to all u guyz..coz u kinda helped me sustain that elated feelin of joy
So..for all u guyz who questioned me..thats the answer..thats the trick..u feel the way u want to feel…sometimes we all romanticize n njoy our sorrow..well ok once in a while..but otherwise..its gud to feel happy..n it’s the best when there is no particular reason..coz when theres is a source n reason for joy..well my experience sez..that kinda joy has a very short life…
So hopin to c a lot more joyous faces…..for longer periods of time…

Cheers
Pavs

Defeat is a Temporary Condition..Giving Up is wat makes it Permanent!!!

Listen to My Heart or Head....

Hmm...m at office..Jus thought i ll put in a li'l note before i leave.....

M lookin forward to the week ahead,a lot of celebrations have been planned at office..On saturday we decorated office..Felt gud..was recollectin Teachers day at school..when we used to be so enthusiastic about such things n put in so much of energy n effort into it...thers a star hangin above my head n one on my comp..(probably thats wat is keepin me at office)
Was suppose to meet a friend today..but din't coz hez bizi..well not feelin too gud about it..but ..Mayb i ll feel like meetin him whn hez free to meet me..Gosh..These dayz i have such crazzyy n severe mood swings!!!
I've learnt so many things the hard way in Life..but yet i can't help listenin to my heart n not my head...The only problem with listenin to the heart is that it brings temporary happiness n a lot of painful memories..but if u listen to your head..I guess you ll keep thinking that there is somethin which you probably should have done but din't do in life..Hmm..i think i ll listen to......ahhh...m not able to make a decision..
(Guess I wldn't have made sense to most of u!!!)

Cheers
Pavs