Makin n Breakin of Relationships….

It jus doesn’t feel good…somehow seems so hard to pull along n say it ll all work out fine…well the truth is ..its not workin fine…n this time I want to be able to be strong n cope with things by myself independently…
I thought I was copin fine but somehow as days pass instead of the wound healin it jus seems to be getting worse..

Oct 12th-the day the BIG decision of not continuing the relationship was made..well wasn’t too easy to make but somehow din’t seem so hard also..but now I wish I was less stubborn, less egoistic, had less respect for myself n broke the promise to myself..coz I know that all that’s needed for getting the relationship back into place is a call from me.But some sensible part of me…guess that’s got to be the head..is saying U matter to Urself, so remain strong-willed.Temporary solutions are of no use,u ll again end up in pain, so don’t resort to the easy way out.Be as stubborn as u are n stick by ur promises, things WILL BE FINE in the long run…

Well I can’t wait for this so called period of ‘long run’,wish it starts soon.Wat makes things harder is the only point of venting out my feelings has been my pillow n of course my blog..its so much more easier when u cry to a friend, who ll put their arms around u n tell u to take things eazi n assure u that this world is a nice place and therz lots to hope for…This time around therz no one to give me that assurance..but I guess that’s the idea behind handling it independently!!!

Had a dream about me n 2 gud frenz of mine sittin on the swing in my balcony n chattin up…makes me feel sick coz these 2 ppl r no more the gr8 frenz that they were….it feels damn sick n empty…..

Before I used to cry sooooooooo easily…now-a-days even tears are hard to come…its jus making things harder for me coz…I donno..but I feel so relieved after a good bout of tears..now the sadness n sorrow is jus ther n well no way to let it out…

Want a break soooooooooo DESPERATELY..from LIFE!!!!

So all of this is about breakin relationships…the makin part….hmm

Two office colleagues of mine got married to the gurls they wer in lov wit after a lot of struggle…that’s something which makes me believe that if a relationship is true and meant to be ..It will be….

Hopin for better n keeping the faith….......

Pavi